As a high school senior, I knew this year would be a busy time in my life. However, I did not believe it would be as busy as it has played out to be so far. With school work alone, I have been swamped with AP English reading, Honors World Cultures papers, and a boggled mind when it comes to the unknown world of Physics. These three classes have given me almost the amount of stress in two months equal to the stress I had for over half of my junior year. Thinking I could maybe catch a break over Thanksgiving weekend turned out to be just one big joke. Given a history reading assignment the day before break, I was on the verge of breaking myself. I already had played out in my head what needed to be complete over the next few days with built in time to relax. It was Thanksgiving, my favorite holiday, slowing being destroyed by school work. I was a mess, to say the least. I had no time to waste, so I began right away. That afternoon I came home around 12:00 from school, sat down at my kitchen table, and opened up my first novel. I had a check list in my head and I was ready to begin going down the line. I knew I had an appointment at 2:00 so in the mean time; I waited for my sleeping college sister to wake up and my mom to come home from work by reading for history. By 9:00 that night, I felt accomplished. I had read 50pgs out of the 62 I had to read for History. The next beast I had to wrestle was the 150pgs I had to complete reading with annotations for English. But I saved that for later and began enjoying the time with my sister and my friends who were home from college.
School work alone is a huge load I have on my shoulders. I have taken a break from worrying about college, because I know the letters will come as they please. After all, I've already been granted 2 acceptances! The next obstacle I am faced with is the Track season that is starting up today. I know that after today, my life is pretty much booked until June. Track is almost like a full time job. I will go to school at 7:30 in the morning and I will not be home until 6:00 that night. But those are just practice days. Throw in a meet on a Wednesday night and I won't be walking through my doors until 10:30pm if I am lucky. But I have given my heart to this sport and, most of all; I have given my heart to my team. After a brutal cross country season, most girls will be taking this season off and not returning until the spring track season. While I give those girls my full respect, I am broken hearted left with the feeling that my team has been taken away from me. A coach once taught us to have PMA (positive mental attitude). I reminded myself to have PMA every time I went out to workout for pre-season. I have not been happy with my performances since sophomore year so it is important that I continue to keep my head up and keep fighting for what I want. As a senior, I want to be there for my girls and teach them the things I didn't know when I was first starting out. I want to be there for the team when we feel like we are in a rut and we can't find our way out. I know that the season holds much potential; we just have to build our way there first.
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